August 14, 2007
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ElectricPoetry: New Poems: Two Masques
Masque/A Breath of Fresh Insistence
Poetry by Michael F. Nyiri
August 14, 2007 6:10am pdtI sit motionless in the kingdom of satisfaction with a clown face
belying my present condition
showing a studied falseness to the throngs, laughing in the face of derision
while the tears flow unevenly down the inside of the maskMethods to madness charted with a crooked straightedge
decrying the destinations and foiling all anticipated fulfillment
reaching with outstretched insanity, but never touching
as the mannered convolutions of existence revolve againI move slowly away from painful platitudes,
a singular diaspora disguised as pleasure,
no crowd of followers nor reverent acolytes appear
on the rocky roads of rambling righteousnessI glance heavenwards at the glory of the cosmos
sliding the mask aside, bravely attempting
to curl the sides of my broken mouth into a smile
as the infinite jeremiads reverberate in sorrowCornered in calamitous conundrums
Stifled with sullen sad serenades as always
the smile appears in an instant, and then fades quickly
as if to smirk at the depth of this dancing depressionWhirling like a dervish with a purposeful fancy
asking questions which never breed answers
grasping the crumpled clown mask of delusion
while devils gape in studied starkness on the sidelinesAt last I rest, weary and forlorn
open to immediacy, living in the now
wiping away the tears, and bravely tossing
aside the mask which never fit properly anywayI sit motionless in the kingdom of satisfaction with a clown face
blowing in the wind at my feet,
away from troubling consequence
replacing false hope with a breath of fresh insistenceMasque/August
Poetry by Michael F. Nyiri
August 14, 2007 6:38am pdtThe august machinations of reality
mask the subtle questions which call out for answers
that never arriveThe tony feelings of purpose
hide the raging inconsistent dalliances
engaging fallacies at the forefrontMore than halfway through the year
One stops, sighs, and shamelessly cries
when realization tells of wasted times
and untasted hopesIn my town, the leaves are turning already
yet the heat seeps unwanted into one's poresElectric insistence charges ahead
illuminating shaky feelings of dread
The imposing phalanx of undone deeds
serves to fulfill nobody's needsWinds stop blowing, fires rage in one's heart
heat, hellish handmaiden,
how can we stop the pain?Somewhere a jaunty jester
regales humanity with laughter and happiness
Somewhere over the rainbow of rapacious delight
someone is giddy with fulsome delightIn my life, the month is cut in twain
again
while the august replicants of reality
laughing as the mirror cracks
showing no answers yet for the questions asked
bleeding
through the gaping eyeholes in their masks
BEHIND THE POETRY: I had a bad day yesterday, and am as usual, praying the new day injects some fresh air and more positive thoughts into my psyche. At least I was inspired by the depression to pen a couple of poems, both nonrhyming, with the subject of depression hopefully slighted by circumstance. The unifying thread in these two poems is the "masque". The existence of depression can be masked by seeming bravado and good tidings, but these are not real to those who suffer. MFN
Comments (22)
here's to wonderful poetry, and a better day.
Dear Mike
When you can express your emotionality of a bad day like this
It is refreshing. I wish you plenty of laughter this day.
I had written a much sweeter response to your words and while reading them back
they just dissappeared from the screen....hmmm
True poetry here.
Very expressive and vocabulicious
of course, my favorite part was this:
Electric insistence charges ahead
illuminating shaky feelings of dread
The imposing phalanx of undone deeds
serves to fulfill nobody's needs
think you'd sneak that one by me?
Overall these were really sad. Cheer up! Let's get drunk.
For whatever common path we share, I seem to identify with your first offering the best. Somehow your heart and mine have seen (weathered?) some of the same....
RYC: Oh I really should correct you on the Leo House price because it is too astounding to let go - this was $65 for two nights per person!! In Manhattan!!! It's great knowing Catholics on days like these.:spinning:
I hope today was a far better day! With many more to come! The only thing to do when I realize I am depressed is to try to remember that it will, with time, get better. And I read recently that smilimg actually will elevate your mood. (Who knew?)
you look like a rapist.
just wanted to let you know.
so you could clean up your act
You have a serious gift with your use of words and similar sounds...it all just flows. I very much enjoyed these. Thank you for the comment, I look forward to reding more.
Sarah
ryc, I don't think you caught the jist of the game - that was the best possible thing to say. Contacted him, hope it works, and thanks big time! :goodjob:
Hi Mike,
Thanks so much for your comments on my blogs. I appreciate all you've said, and it is great to finally have my PC working really well again!
Your poetry really is beautifully written. I could sense even before I reached the bottom of your blogs, the depth of depression you must have been feeling to have penned the words in your poems. I truly hope you're feeling much better now. It's easy for some people to say, "snap out of it" (meaning the depression), but of course that can't be done so easily.
I had a look at your photos underneath, and they're terrific! I especially love the birds one. You've captured a great action shot there, combined with the water. You have a real "eye" for photography! :coolman:
Again, I hope you're feeling much better now. :wave:
Those are amazing - and actually speak to my mood of late
these are great...and the fact that you recognize them is even greater...this too shall pass...and thank you, thank you, thank you sooooo much...I appriciate, (sp) it so much...Smile
Nothing deep today - I just hope you feel better. I've been able to keep depression bouts away for about a month now. When I feel them coming on, I decide to take action and do something different, like clean the dishes or ride my bike or somehow get out of the house or wherever it is that I feel confined. I know it's not that easy for some, but I'll take my blessings where I can. Peace to you, Mike.
Of course I know that the O.C. is a county and not a city. I watched the awful TV show
As for the "what I learned" bit, I got that from my mother, travelerblue. Her posts are always familiar and witty. Are you perking up more today?
Nice poetry. Are you feeling a bit down. Is this new poetry or old. Judi
Hi Mike,
Thank you for visiting again. My entries the last few days were low key. I am investigating a new business opportunity and my time is limited.
I am more interested in your first poem than the second. You employ an amazingly rich vocabulary. There is a message which I can apply in my personal life. You gave me a new word to adopt in my vocabulary of power words: "insistence". It is not a new word in my vocabulary but it is certainly a word thatgot more meaning through reading your poem.
Jurgens
I just happened to find your blog by "chance" and I am so glad that I did! Wow! I really like the first one best, your emotions shout through very well.
Blessings, ~Helena
http://i.xanga.com/Alice/heartbeating.gif See this new pc only copies the html script not the icon. Oh well! Thanks for the comment! I really should post more. No promises! I am not going to try changing my Xanga! No way! I like things simple and uncomplicated.
Great pics of Long Beach. I really enjoy your photo and videoblogs since I don't get around to those familiar places anymore. I went by a place I had not been to in some time and it had changed. Guess I am getting old LOL!
Take care,
~thoughts through the looking-glass~
Karolyn
Hi Mike -
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Hi Mike, The poetry is . splendid. Have a wonderful day. Judi
HAHA. That's quite some profile picture you have there, Mike.
:wave:I hope things got better. But as you point out, the positive side of your depression is being inspired to write some new poems.
Something about the august replicants of reality made me think about SAD. As the light wanes in August, I beging to deal with depression more often. If it's not circumstantial depression, I read today that a 10 minute walk every 2 hours can help. The benefits of walking only last 2 hours. I will see if it works this fall.
:sunny: Wishing you sunny days. :sunny:
can last 15 to 25 years.